Courage & Vulnerability

I’m struggling with self doubt… I’ve just released my first book to the world and somehow forgot that in doing so people will now know how I truly think and feel. This fascinates me because I’m not certain how I missed that writing a book which synthesizes my learning, growth and healing in an open and unfiltered way would eventually mean others would have opportunity to read it lol. If I chose to release it. Yet, I didn’t even consider NOT releasing it. In fact, I was pushing the self publish button before I’d even thought to order a proof copy and WHAM! No more access to editing, no opportunity to take it back… it was launched… like a rocket to the universe… and again somehow, before I could think twice I was sharing the launch publicly all over social media!

It’s not like me to not carefully consider my public moves. I’d like to offer something profound, to say something like I decided to bare my soul in the book but it wasn’t like that. It was more like the wisdom moved through me, poured onto the pages, and needed to be shared. I’ve made myself vulnerable… perhaps this was a courageous act… perhaps if I had thought about timing, if I’d paused before pushing the button, and reconsidered, would I still do it? I think the answer is yes… because I hope others find inspiration and healing in the pages. I hope others feel less fearful of being authentically themselves. I hope the offerings within the book open up conversation that people might not otherwise feel safe enough to share, so they too can be courageous in their vulnerability. At least that’s what I’m telling myself… lol

Profound gratitude for the out pouring of congratulations & support… my vulnerable heart is overflowing!